Friday, May 11, 2007
one last cry
i slept in my sheets for the last time last night. woke up this morning, put them in the wash, and in a couple of hours they will be packed up among cheryl's things and put into storage. i won't get to roll around in my purple sheets anymore. =(
today's the last breakfast of champions as well. i took double the amount of food i usually do, just because.
tomorrow is the last day for check-out. i won't get to see these people anymore for, perhaps, the rest of my life.
i don't know if i'm over-reacting to the situation, but i really am very sad. maybe because i've only had two years here and now i have to leave. and maybe because each semester has been better than the previous that i'm still looking forward to more. i'm sad about having to leave the college lifestyle, about having to leave america, about no longer having my own space and time and being accountable to no one else but myself.
i've decided to go ahead with europe. and maybe visit suching in bangalore when i get back. and if i have time and money left, hongkong to see vennesa and jonathan. i don't want to have to return to the singapore life yet. the thought of getting caught in the mundane cycle of work, home, work, home, work, hom scares the hell out of me. and as much as i can say now that i promise myself i won't allow myself to lead that 'comfortable' life, it's so easy to fall back into the general flow of things.
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....
I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cryLabels: a-musing
7:48 AM
